AKu ada Kamu

I almost forgot how the feeling is to hear a song that really touches your soul. Thanx to Adira, I felt it again last night. Her performance for dis song was totally awesome, it almost brought tears to my eyes. Even though she wasn't the winner, in my heart she is the winner. I think the lyric of dis song is very meaningful. It's very universal and it really touched my heart. I wanna dedicate this song to my best friends and motivator. I mean every word from dis song.

Ku Ada Kamu

Di kala ku kehilangan
Di dalam kegelapan
Kau suluhkan sinar petunjuk
Di kala ku kesedihan
Kau ukirkan senyuman

Dengan penuh sabar memujuk
Engkau menyambut tiap kali aku terjatuh
Seandainya hari esok runtuhnya langit dijunjung
Tabahlah menjunjung bersamaku
Seandainya hari esok dunia dilanda gelora
Takkan ku gemuruh selagi ku ada kamu

Di kala aku tak pasti
Kau tampil dengan berani
Membimbing agar lebih yakin
Dan bila hidup penuh soalan
Kau berikan jawapan
Melengkap semua kekurangan

Engkau menyambut tiap kali aku terjatuh
Tidak mungkin diri ini mampu hidup tanpa doronganmu

Lagu: Edry Abd Halim (KRU Publishing)
Lirik: Edry Abd Halim (KRU Publishing)

Something interesting bout her dat I just found out a few seconds ago. She's the same age as me! haha! and we're both the youngest in the family. Her birthday's on 19th September 1991, just two weeks after mine. What a coincidence!

Pet Society

Dats my pet in pet society. Syamin! Doesn't she look like a rock star in that outfit? Well, it's 80s rockstar theme dis week in petso. That's actually a boy's outfit but I think it looks cute on Syamin. Way cuter than the girl's outfit. Maybe Syamin is just like her master. She doesn't like wearing skirts. Haha!! I've been having her since 11th March 2009. Sometimes I didn't visit her and she wud stink. I hate it when she's surrounded by flies. Well,petso sure is addictive! Here are some of Syamin's room decorated by me :

This is Syamin's garden. Great fruit huh?

Halloween week in pet society!

Best theme ever! Japanese theme!

Her kitchen I might say.

Christmas week! =)

There are more but you can just view at my album in facebook. There's hundreds of them! Hehe.. Maybe next time I'll share more bout Syamin! Ciao~ *wink*

Dreams..what do they mean?

saat aku tertawa di atas semua
saat aku menangisi kesedihanku
aku ingin engkau selalu ada
aku ingin engkau aku kenang

selama aku masih bernafas
masih sanggup berjalan
ku kan slalu memujamu

meski ku tak tahu lagi
engkau ada di mana
dengarkan aku ku merindukanmu

saat aku mencoba merubah segalanya
saat aku meratapi kekalahanku
aku ingin engkau selalu ada
aku ingin engkau aku kenang

I woke up early today. Sumthg happnd last nite n I wanted to sleep to run away from the sadness. There's just a never-ending to the chaos in this house. I cleaned the house a bit and washed my clothes. Then I got sleepy again so I slept soundly. I had a weird dream at first. I was in Giant and wanted to buy something but I only had RM15.00 in purse so I decided not to buy anything. Then I wondered how did I get to Giant alone. Did I drive? I searched for any familiar car but there wasn't any. I waited for the bus and still wondered how the hell did I get here. I asked someone to pinch my cheek and I felt her pinching. Then I sorta forced myself to wake up.

"oh yeah, it's just a dream. Thank God." Then I fall back into slumber.

The dream continued actually. I went back to my home in sek17. Surprisingly my parents came and visit me. Both my parents. I literally forgot that my father passed away. All I knew was I poured everything to him. All my problems and sadness and he listened to me attentively with a worried look on his face. After the pouring session I went upstairs to my room. Suddenly I remembered the time when I wanted to talk to him badly but couldn't. Then it hit me. Wait, Abah passed away. How did he came back.

I searched for my mom and asked her. How did u manage to bring Abah back? She said that my dad was the one coming to her. She was walking alone and he came to her saying that he's worried about our family. After hearing that I ran to him and hugged him tightly. I was crying and saying how much I miss him. I asked him why'd he left us all. He was holding his tears too and I knew he kept quiet bcoz there wasn't anything that he could do about it. It's written that way. He can't change that.

When I woke up, I immediately texted my friends and tears couldn't stop flowing down my cheek. I guess the dream is showing what's in my heart. All these while I've never assumed that he passed away. He is still alive, in my heart. He always came to me in my dream. Usually when I'm sad he'll come. I've not been dreaming much about him lately till today. I guess he doesn't want me to forget his existence in my heart. Coz as long as I remember him, I will stay strong bcoz he has always showed the same example to me. When he was sick, he told his friends that he couldn't take it. That it was painful all the time but he showed a tough face bcoz he's the head of the family. He didn't want us to be worried of him.

I don't think I can keep writing bout this. I better stop now or I'll cry again. I will stay strong. I know I can. It's just that sometimes I really miss him. Like today. I just hope the chaos in my house will stop. I wish I could tell everyone to act rational b4 screaming and yelling at each other's face. Okay, I'm exaggerating. There are yelling but just from 1 side. And bcoz of that they're not seeing each others' faces. I don't like it when we have this kinda fight. Although I'm not included in the fight, it hurts as much. Hopefully 2nite I won't have a bad dream anymore. N if abah comes to my dream, I hope it's a happy dream.

I miss u Abah :'(

Maid-Sama!

If you have Astro and is interested in watching anime, why not try watching this anime? I've never watched it b4 as well but I have a feeling that it'd be funny. Here's the synopsis from Animax:

Student council president, Misaki Ayuzawa, works part-time at a maid café which contradicts with her ‘no-nonsense, tough-talking’ reputation at her high school dominated by males. When her secret is discovered by Takumi Usui – the most popular guy in school – she is bewildered when he keeps it a secret but this is merely the start of his merciless teasing of her...

And here's a more detailed synopsis from Wikipedia :

Seika High School, once an all-boys school notorious for its wild students and for generally being a terrifying place for girls, has recently become a co-ed school. With the female population still a minority and living in fear of the over-the-top antics of the males, Misaki Ayuzawa takes it into her own hands to reform the school and allow the girls to feel safe in the rough environment.

Training, studying and even becoming the first female student council president of the school, Misaki has gained a reputation among the male students body as an uptight boy-hating dictator and as a shining hope for the teachers and fellow female students. However, despite her tough-as-nails appearance, she secretly works part-time at a maid cafe in order to support her family. Unfortunately, her hard-earned reputation is threatened when the popular and somewhat impassive Usui Takumi takes an interest in her after discovering her in a maid uniform after school.

How's the synopsis? I'm sorry I'm not a good promoter. I wish I could be more persuassive. Hmm..why not check on these pictures? They're not the best pics I could find. Since it's still broadcasting, I guess it's still new. I couldn't find much picture and none from theOtaku.com. Anyway, enjoy the pictures! ^^

I'm pretty sure there's gonna be a lot of bullying in this anime! Can't wait to watch. I'll probably just download them from the net if it's possible. If not I'd have to wait in front of the television every day to watch this. Anyone has the full anime? 

Anime Addiction

I kinda miss watching anime. I've not been watching any anime dis semester. (So sad!) But today, I managed to watch K-ON on animax. Yeay~! Watching K-ON totally brought back the memory of watching it b4. It was such a cute anime dat I laughed almost every minute while watching it. Anyway, I was browsing theOtaku.com when I found this quiz. Haha. I didn't expect any answer coz I don't think any of the girls resemble me. Anyway, here's my result.

Haha..21, wud u ever expect me to get Mio? The description is also questionable. I am shy with those I do not know but not with the ones close with me. The description made me sound like I'm so introverted. Haha. Well, Mio is cool as well. After all, she's the mature one. The part where I'd be the one writing songs might be true. Other descriptions are no-no I guess. If you watch the anime you'd know why I'm in denial. Mio is too shy! I'm not THAT shy okay! ^^ In case you wanna do the quiz as well, just go to theOtaku.com and search for K-ON. Click on quiz. There's only 1 quiz so it wouldn't be a problem to find it. Try and answer the quiz. If you've watched the anime I think it's compulsory to do the quiz. hehe.. 21, we'll see if you get Yui. ;)