Holding Back Your Tears

I've been very miserable this week. Tak taula org perasan ke tak. Maybe tak kot. Ataupun org perasan tp org x amek peduli. It's normal la kan...at first you thought that you care for people and they care for you but in the end reality hurts. I'm not pointing at anyone directly,k.. Juz let me 'merepek' at my blog today.

I've always been in this situation. i want to cry so much but the tears just wouldn't drop. I feel the pain and yet I'm trying my best to hide it from people. (abestu knp tulis kat blog? sengal!) Well, I don't want people to know it directly...only those who really know me can see the cloud in my eyes. I want to share this with someone but I feel that I have no place to go. (I have the GREATEST roommates but I dun want them to listen to my problem when they are all busy with tests now. Perhaps in the weekend I will). So,that leaves me my other friends. Where are they? All happy with their life. I dun want to ruin their happiness with my problem.

What would you do if you're in my shoes? I feel like crying all day and stop thinking about it. But, crying doesn't solve your problem so why make it a big deal? (aku mmg ssh nak ngs drpd kecik) I feel so powerless to see things that I dislike happening in front of my eyes but there's nothing I can do about it. I faced it during high school and I'm facing it again, here. Is my voice really that small? People don't seem to care what I say. Is it because I'm younger than you guys that you don't respect me? I don't know. I just hope this thing would stop bugging me and I hope I'd happy watching PGL tonight.